20th Box.

[playwitchu]

Where were we before we came here? I... Cannot seem to remember. Already... Everything is starting to be ripped away from me only to turn into shadows and ghosts that haunts me no matter where I go. Shadows in my dreams never fading or going away, make them go away make them go away. Make the shadows go away.

I also wonder, how much more time I have left to live. Before I just knew how much but now, I am not certain but already I can feel everything thanks to my condition. Ai... What would you do should I fade away like those shadows and ghosts I often see? Why can I no longer can at least sense when I will die?

...

This is almost what it feels to be human, it's nice... Really...



[ooc: What Sai means by his 'death' is not an actual character 'death' but mostly the death of his current self due to his condition of losing his memories and worse, when his memories 'restart' and he forgets everything. He is probably the most 'human' he will ever be in his life right now so he doesn't want to lose that.]

Comments

[playwitchu]

How about the whole betray someone that trusted you thing?

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you've never been betrayed before, then I'm sorry it had to happen from me, 'cause I'm not someone who goes around betraying people often. As bad as it is, betrayal is something people do and are involved in a lot. It's how you come out of it that matters.

If you're going to hold a grudge against that one person instead of working together so we can all get back to our lives back home, then that's your own decision.

I've made up my mind. How about you.

[playwitchu]

My mind has already been made up ever since that day.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Well, then you're not getting any help from me. I'll always be around to stop you.

[playwitchu]

I would like to see you try.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

I don't want to try if I don't have to. The last thing I want is for more people to be hurt.

Sorry, got things to do right now.

[playwitchu]

As you wish and oh.... Stay away from Ai.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you were a real friend to her, you wouldn't keep her separate from everyone. Now she's just your pet.

[playwitchu]

She isn't my pet and I am only separating her from you.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Why would I hurt her? I'm not like that.

[playwitchu]

And why would you hurt someone that trusted you? That reason alone can make you hurt someone else like that or worse. I cannot chance it with Ai.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but see, some people actually understand more than you are right now. They understand why I did that, or if they don't, they forgive me later on.

I'm not buying your argument anymore.

[playwitchu]

Such things has no meaning for me.

Wheater you buy or not it doesn't matter for me as I will not have Ai go through with what I have gone through.

Something like you can never understand.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

I can never understand? You're just saying that 'cause you don't get what I'm saying and you just can't move on.

[playwitchu]

I do understand what yo uare saying.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you did, then you'd understand why I did what I did. My idea at the time was stupid- I wasn't thinking clearly.