20th Box.

[playwitchu]

Where were we before we came here? I... Cannot seem to remember. Already... Everything is starting to be ripped away from me only to turn into shadows and ghosts that haunts me no matter where I go. Shadows in my dreams never fading or going away, make them go away make them go away. Make the shadows go away.

I also wonder, how much more time I have left to live. Before I just knew how much but now, I am not certain but already I can feel everything thanks to my condition. Ai... What would you do should I fade away like those shadows and ghosts I often see? Why can I no longer can at least sense when I will die?

...

This is almost what it feels to be human, it's nice... Really...



[ooc: What Sai means by his 'death' is not an actual character 'death' but mostly the death of his current self due to his condition of losing his memories and worse, when his memories 'restart' and he forgets everything. He is probably the most 'human' he will ever be in his life right now so he doesn't want to lose that.]

Comments

[omniconcert.livejournal.com]

Don't die! You still have to get married to Ai!

[playwitchu]

I think that I still have at least a month left but I am not sure... She knows of my condition so she is prepared.

[omniconcert.livejournal.com]

A mon--

Wait, if you die here, don't you come back?

[playwitchu]

Not this type of death I am sure of.

[omniconcert.livejournal.com]

A different type of death?

[playwitchu]

Yes and no.

[omniconcert.livejournal.com]

Yes and no? That totally like, doesn't make sense and stuff.

[playwitchu]

It doesn't seem right to tell anyone but Ai, sorry.

[omniconcert.livejournal.com]

Oh, well I guess that's okay. One of those lover's secrets or something. How romantic.

Well, we're going to have to play together before you die!

Linda is too cute for her own good.

[playwitchu]

I guess that you can say that.

Yes! We are going to!

[invisible-ai.livejournal.com]

We were in Japan, pursuing the detective Yako Katsuragi's "assistant," Neuro Nougami. Discovering his true nature was key to our goal of identifying your true self.

... What can you still remember?

...

I have remained with you for this long, Sai. I am by your side always. Even if the future seems bleak and your memories fade, that part of who we are the "invisible" and the "unknown" will never change.

[playwitchu]

I remember Neuro. I can never forget hi. Japan huh?

....

..... Finding that old woman, first meeting with Neuro, how we first met and the playing for that 'Statue of My Final Self'.

We are just phantoms passing through, Ai.

[invisible-ai.livejournal.com]

Good, that is most reassuring. And yes, the far eastern collection of islands known as Japan. Our temporary home was not far away from Tokyo, I believe.

...Then the important data still remains. I have it collected, and so it will never be truly lost as long as my materials stay intact.

To true...

[playwitchu]

I always wanted to live near Tokyo! I bet it was filled up with arts and works, huh Ai?

I knew that I can count on you, Ai for anything.

Perhaps we can becomes phantoms here as well.

[mrbaseballfan.livejournal.com]

Sai..? You ok man?

[playwitchu]

Just mostly thinking and I can feel my condition getting worse.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

...I dunno what think about this, Sai, but.. You dying won't be a good thing. Stay strong.

[playwitchu]

What? Are you now feeling guilty or something?

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

It's not my fault it's happening. Why would I feel guilty?

[playwitchu]

How about the whole betray someone that trusted you thing?

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you've never been betrayed before, then I'm sorry it had to happen from me, 'cause I'm not someone who goes around betraying people often. As bad as it is, betrayal is something people do and are involved in a lot. It's how you come out of it that matters.

If you're going to hold a grudge against that one person instead of working together so we can all get back to our lives back home, then that's your own decision.

I've made up my mind. How about you.

[playwitchu]

My mind has already been made up ever since that day.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Well, then you're not getting any help from me. I'll always be around to stop you.

[playwitchu]

I would like to see you try.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

I don't want to try if I don't have to. The last thing I want is for more people to be hurt.

Sorry, got things to do right now.

[playwitchu]

As you wish and oh.... Stay away from Ai.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you were a real friend to her, you wouldn't keep her separate from everyone. Now she's just your pet.

[playwitchu]

She isn't my pet and I am only separating her from you.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Why would I hurt her? I'm not like that.

[playwitchu]

And why would you hurt someone that trusted you? That reason alone can make you hurt someone else like that or worse. I cannot chance it with Ai.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but see, some people actually understand more than you are right now. They understand why I did that, or if they don't, they forgive me later on.

I'm not buying your argument anymore.

[playwitchu]

Such things has no meaning for me.

Wheater you buy or not it doesn't matter for me as I will not have Ai go through with what I have gone through.

Something like you can never understand.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

I can never understand? You're just saying that 'cause you don't get what I'm saying and you just can't move on.

[playwitchu]

I do understand what yo uare saying.

[the-blueblur.livejournal.com]

If you did, then you'd understand why I did what I did. My idea at the time was stupid- I wasn't thinking clearly.